I keep a lot of stuff to myself and i don\u00b4t speak about things on this blog because of the stalkers.
But i just came back from LA and i simply want to talk about what happened to me there with no restrains. I write in english as a form of forcing the non-english speaking bystanders to be overwhelmed by the effort of translating. So here i go.<\/p>\n
My flight departed at 7 am so i had to be up at 3 am. It is a common and sure fact that in the wake of such a day one doesnt sleep properly even if you want to, and i was not an exception. I only got two hours of sleep.<\/p>\n
The last time i visited LA i was a child. Who would have thought id be back in my adulthood, and not for pleasure purposes, but to get to know an art collector better? And with all expenses payed.
The taxi driver who took me downtown was having a hell of a bad day: all cranky and swearing at everybody. I tried to ignore his foul vibes and focused on the distant skyscrapers i was heading to while i listened to \u00abHey Jude\u00bb on my ipod. I realized then that i am gonna weep hard the day Paul McCartney will finally meet his mates in the afterlife. And god, i will cry buckets when David Bowie does the same.<\/p>\n
I have been pretty insensitive the last months, i came to the temporary conclusion its just the reaction i took unconsciously to avoid getting hurt. Last week i found out a way to dig a hole into my aparently numb inner world. The brigdes were music and hunger. I realized i liked to be hungry because i feel lighter, and the LA trip was slowly getting inside me, waking up some unknown apettites and familiar sentiments which i profoundly welcomed.<\/p>\n
Mr. Aframian\u00b4s office was located of Hill Street, in the heart of the jewellers district, i realized LA\u00b4s ugliness (as a lack or harmony, LA is not like Paris) while i stepped down the cab and headed into the old building. The weather was a little cold, the displays sparkled with diamonds as i entered the elevator and pressed the number 5.<\/p>\n
The next six hours or so i kept myself busy talking to Sam\u00b4s employees, two of them of Mexican origin. I was starving so i ate all the pistacchios they had on a cute tray. Sam finally greeted me with great warmth and i gave him a present: two soft ground engravings i had printed for him the day before. He was delighted and marvelled, next i unpacked the pictures that Luis (my patron) had taken to LA some hours before i arrived. His reaction and how everyone at the office rushed in to catch a glimpse made me feel a little out of place, i wanted to weep but i couldnt. I just stood there giving explanaitions of each picture, the meaning and technique. I don\u00b4t understand why people want everything figured out; most of the time i don\u00b4t know why i paint or draw certain things: the creative process is always a step ahead of the rational thought. And you find out what part of you surfaced and why sometimes until years have passed.<\/p>\n
At last i showed him my latest works, with this i finally managed to kill him. I had never seen such a look on any man\u00b4s face: lover or friend, the utter look of admiration, almost adoration. An enchanting old jewish gentleman who works for Sam held my hand and said to me that next time i came lo LA he would cover my hands in gold. His kindness was disarming, i could have hugged him endlessly like the loving grandfather i never had. It strikes me that lately, the men that have seen me<\/span> are over 60.<\/p>\n My eyes were all stingy from the lack of sleep, buy Sam still wanted to take us to dinner, so we went. It was a marvelous evening, great food for the body and the soul. I discovered Sam\u00b4s love for everything japanese, something we have in common. He asked me \u00abNihon go hanashimasu ka?\u00bb and when i answered \u00abChotto nihon go hanashimasu\u00bb he couldn\u00b4t be more bewildered.<\/p>\n Sam had to leave us because he had a late flight to Atlanta. I hugged him good bye, hoping that the warmth i had seen on this ruthless bussiness man was true. I wished i could trust him entirely, i wondered if he would be my friend for real, i hope he is.<\/p>\n I spend the next three nights at this beautiful hotel called The Los Angeles Athletic Club, i had a room for my own: huge, luxurious, on the eleventh floor, the beds where impossibly cozy, the lightning perfect. I knew i didn\u00b4t miss anything or anybody at that moment. I felt i belonged.<\/p>\n I left the windows open, i wanted to see the sunrise from my bed in a few hours. And so i did. The feeling of waking up in a beautiful hotel room, wrapped in soft sheets and looking at the LA skyline, with its endless lines of little windows, the sun smiling coyly from the clouds and the soft racket of the traffic as a lullaby was powerful. I felt happy i was alone, for the first time in a long time. Like i really own myself and owe noone nothing. At 31, selling my artwork abroad i felt there was no other place i wanted to be.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I keep a lot of stuff to myself and i don\u00b4t speak about things on this blog because of the stalkers.But i just came back from LA and i simply want to talk about what happened to me there with no restrains. I write in english as a form of forcing the non-english speaking bystanders […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"inline_featured_image":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[7],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2906","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-blog"],"yoast_head":"\n